In the Summer of 2014, I was given a gift in disguise.
An elbow to the back of the head granted me my 6th concussion; a circumstance which I at first perceived as an obstacle, but quickly realized to be a very powerful miracle.
I was hit by the occipital lobe, so my eyes were unable to focus on a screen or words. I had no access to TV, computers, phones, or written content of any kind. Listening to and processing information - visual or audial - was difficult.
Graduation from University, exercise, normal conversation, and large gatherings were put out of question by doctors. I became well acquainted with my bed… and myself.
I had not realized was that I had been given a rare opportunity to live simply; to get in touch with myself, with no access to outside information.
As a high extrovert completely immersed in the “hustle culture” at the time, introspection was a rarity. I had, in the past, searched externally for much of that which I defined as “happiness” or “success”. I can recall mentally straining for months, feeling such unease as I lay in my bed imagining what I was missing at school, how my athletics would be affected, and similar less than productive thoughts.
I quickly began to realize that what we focus on is the reality which we create.
And therein, the overhaul of my thought processes began,
for what we believe to be true for ourselves is how we experience life.
Albert Einstein once said that the most important decision which humans need to make is whether we live in a fearful or loving Universe, and I agree! Choosing to believe in the good, even if my mind couldn’t quite comprehend it, was a very intentional thought, which after a little bit of forcing (hehe), became a pattern.
The starkest of contrasts took root when I allowed myself to relax into life in this sense, trusting what I was experiencing without any logic, except that I had chosen to believe that there was a loving reason for the concussion. When the strain of attempting to control the circumstance dissolved, I began to notice simple things that I had never taken a moment to noticed before.
The vibrance of the seasons, for example. The purples emerging in the spring, to the lush greenery and warm wind of a summer evening, to the smell of crisp leaves in the air of the fall brought to my attention by the winds of change.
My busy mind previously fragmented by multiple thoughts shifted into a knowing that…
To live “here and now” is to be in tune with miracles present in each moment;
To be in conscious conversation with someone is to FEEL their emotions; to be compassionate;
To experience personal emotions of frustration or anger as an observer, simply knowing that emotions come and go like weather;
To begin to realize that absolutely anything is possible to create when you place your attention there, including recovery from physical injury; and
To begin to cultivate only positive thoughts out of realization that they literally manifest in how you view your world; your reality, and what is possible in your life.
Now, sometimes, I dance around the gym or catch myself with a face sore from smiling, walking through the grocery store simply because I am experiencing it: A life where every moment is perfect.
My definitions of certain words in our culture began to shift:
“Success” shifted from “accomplishment” to “experience”;
“Joy” became “this moment” rather than a state I had to reach;
“Comparison” became uncomprehensible, because no two perceptions or life stories are the same
“Judgement” stopped, because “Compassion” took root in my heart.
As such miracle minded concepts took root in my mind, these thoughts translated into a belief that recovery was very, very possible.
Thought turned into action, and my body slowly, through incremental shifts in training, began to believe itself to be more capable, as well: I have completed University and am beyond blessed to be able to move my body again. (Except for the splits; a skill I am determined to have! Currently sitting at approximately 90 degrees out of the full 180. Heheh!)
Choosing love and positive thoughts are the best medicine. After years of treatment, the greatest shift in physical recovery began once my mind truly and wholeheartedly believed it to be possible!!
When we do our best to choose a loving intention to underlie every thought, word, and action, no circumstance can be perceived as an obstacle.
Here’s to relaxing into the world, welcoming what comes, focusing on abundance, loving all those in our lives, and believing that we ARE capable of surfing that wave.
:) :) :)