*THRIVE Was Created to Help You*
If you’re clicking on this post, it likely means you’ve come on over from my IG account, @ThriveByCayla. Welcome- so happy to have you here. As promised, here is a brief intro as to why I’m here.
**TW****
I am a trauma survivor- in fact, trauma was all I knew for a long time- it was my baseline. There was no "normal;" there was just trauma.
It is very hard to unravel trauma, especially abuse, and especially when it is relational. I was sexually abused by someone in my family across 14 years and during that time frame also experienced severe emotional and at times, physical abuse. Nothing felt safe.
Dissociation and numbing were my coping mechanisms, and I became reckless. I literally did not stop moving and operated at full speed for the better part of one decade.
I self sabotaged close friendships and all relationships. I over-worked, constantly chasing perfectionism. I binge drank. On one work contract, I drank every night for 6 months, justifying it as ‘social drinking’.
I put myself in danger while I was drinking all the time. One time a stranger found me barefoot, walking on a mixture of gravel and glass at 1am on the far side of town, away from traffic, away from streetlights.
"What the f*ck are you doing out here alone?" he said to me. I didn't know, and I actually did not care.
Things escalated, and in 2013 I was diagnosed with Complex PTSD. Since then I committed to my healing and have now come out the other side.
I know devastation and terror well because I have looked them in the eyes. I know what emptiness feels like- what it means to have no will left to live anymore.
I know loss, and sadness and pain- this was the company I kept most nights for a long, long time.
I don't know what brought you here but please know this- you can keep going and you can move forward. Trust in the resilience of your spirit.
At the moment my next 1:1 THRIVE program intake is in July, 2021. Please reach out or share if you’d like more info!
If I can do it you can too. I'm really looking forward to exploring this journey together.
If we haven’t met already, I’d love to hear from you. Please reach out.
LOVE YOU.